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[02 Feb 2005|05:00pm] |
i think i quit livejouranl...
this seems pointless to me. does anyone ACTUALLY write what they are truly feeling?nope. anyoen who is anyone knows what's going on in my life. they don't need to read it.
adios muchachos' it's been fun.
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[28 Jan 2005|02:10pm] |
i haven't been that good at updating this thingy i noticed. Last year everyone was obsessed with these things. Then again it turned into gossips playground so i guess that's not a bad thing that people are leaving there lives off the screen.
i am so amazingly happy with my schedule this semester. I've never had such organized teachers before, which makes the learning AND keepingme organized a breeze. Even though we've only had the classes for three days now, i can tell it will be a worthwhile time.
english is esspeically wonderful. Ms.Harts humor kill me.
eh it's friday and i am amazingly tired. I didn't think i could keep my eyes open any longer.
thirty min. till the bell rings....THEN rehersal till 5...oy vey
have a good weekend kiddies
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[26 Jan 2005|07:25pm] |
i guess the important people in Beverly came to their senses today...we had school off.Yahoo!
I've noticed that watching my family is like watching a sitcom.Nichole can confirm this, as she has seen my mom and dad at their strangest. My dad is the king of those oh so sad "dad"type jokes...we don't even blink an eye when he cracks a joke anymore. as my everyone said at dinner.
artie(that ghetto kid who calls himself my brother): dad i can't belive you just said that.
*ashley chokes on her pasta laughing *
mom: yes well it's getting to the point where no one even responds when you make jokes, like an old person who rants and you just ignore it."
dad:thanks i love you all too
dinner time with the newmans , wonderful
i've started to become scared of that mocha kid who sleeps in the room next to me, my how-you-say brother. He's past the simple questions phase, like "where did i come from" and has no moved on to much more complicated things. I was truly terrified when he said this to me last night...
"ashley can i ask you something"
" er sure?"
" one of my friends said girls can masterbate, is that true?"
*runs for the hills..*
dear lord, that nearly had me in cardiac arrest. How do you respond to that? i didnt even know he knew the word! i basically bowed my head and walked away, praying like there's no tommorow that the parentals did not hear the M word under their roof. it's not a typical comvorsation in our home. OBVIOUSLY.
well we had off today and the most productive thing i did all day was type up two essays while talkign to mikey (even though that's top secret...grrrrr) now it's 7:33 , i'd say i wasted my life today. i asked my dad if i could go out and he said
"sure you can go out TO SHOVEL"
never.
lauren, this past week has inforced ONE reason i would rather live with you in texas. snow. you get sick of it, i promise. it's nice to look at...not nice to shovel/drive/walk/get up in the morning..etc.
alright then to quote samantha ann.."off like a prom dress..."
:o
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[25 Jan 2005|06:11pm] |
today was nothing short of wonderful
we started our new set of classes, i couldn't have got better teachers/classes.
(we interupt this journal entry because people refuse to stop im'ing me)
M SwitcH6824: hey!
AsHaLeY8778: hi you!
M SwitcH6824: whats up?!
AsHaLeY8778: updating my journal
M SwitcH6824: nice
M SwitcH6824: PUT ME IN IT
M SwitcH6824: JON MADE IT IN ONE TIME
M SwitcH6824: but not me
M SwitcH6824: :-(
AsHaLeY8778: okay will do
okay dear, there you are..you made your debut in my journal
and we're back...
so yes, AB block.Finally i have an amusing teacher, who wil be able to keep my awake through 8-10:00. marvalous. I have mr.roy AB block for physics...he's quite funny. and doesn't belive in homework.amen.
CD block. oh gosh, can we just talk about ms.hart for a second. If she were 40 something years younger, she would be best friends with me and sam. she has the best humor i've ever heard. Here she is , the oldest teacher i have, with the most wit and cracks dirty jokes. awesome.
EF- all the music stuff...vocal/concertquire/band/chorale..hasnt' changed...same ol'same ol'.
GH- again i lucked out. Ms.Epie is back from her maternity leave. lovely, she is such a nice lady..and her class is nice and organized, you know exaclty what she expects. AND jordana and Wil are in my class :)
i am eating starburst number 25...i didn't notice i picked up a yellow one *bleh* actually i lie, i'm kind of suckign on them, as i can't chew a stinking thing. i have to get use to this braces thingy. Still can't play in band..gr
today at rehersal we blocked out "here on who"...god me and andy do not mix well. If mr.and mrs.mayor can't sing together , i think there is a problem-o there. The choreography was very cute and whatnot..but i wans't all that into it today. i dont' know why. COULD be because i feel like wil feels awkward around me, which is stupid.he's under the WRONG assumption here. i'm near just going up to him and being like "DUDE..." just kidding, that's not going to happen.
adios amigo
"Can't 'cha feel my heartbeat keeping perfect time?
And all because he...
Touched me
He looked at me and stared, yes he
Bumped me
My heart was unprepared when he
Tapped me
And knocked me off my feet
One little touch
Now my life's complete 'cause when he
Nudged me
Love put me in a fix, yes it
Hit me
Just like a ton of bricks, yes my
Heart burst
Now i know what life's about
One little touch
And love's knocked me out and,
TRACY (& ENSEMBLE)
I can hear the bells
My head is spinning
I can hear the bells
Something's beginning
Everybody says
That a girl who looks like me
Can't win his love
Well, just wait and see 'cause
I can hear the bells
Just hear them chiming
I can hear the bells
My temp'rature's climbing
I cant contain my joy
'Cause i fin'ly found the boy
I've been missin'
Listen!
I can hear the bells "
oh hairspray :)
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[21 Jan 2005|09:05am] |
well this day is off to a lovely start...really.
(check the time)it's only 9 in the mornign and i'm already at school. As i missed yesterday i had to come in and makeup any finals i missed. I also figured that i would sort out my schedule before mon. comes around. There's usually a line going practialy all the way down lower G to get into the guidance office on the day a semester starts. none of that.
Well here's something to be happy about...
i just went into the bandroom and lo and behold the whole jazz band is there rehearsing, so that was tres embarrising to stumble on by past novack in his conductor chair...er...right i digress, that's not the happy part. I went to apologize to ms.p for not being at rehersal the other day, because according to nichole she wasnt' happy that i talked to wil and not her. Right...she was in qutie a good mood , all she said was " dont' be scared of me ashley, dont' worry about it, next time just tell me instead." she proceeds to tell me all about what we did at rehersal and what not. I'm like shocked that she didnt' murder me on the spot. I then left the office where i got my bag stuck on the door handle...with all the jazz band behind me.
yeah it was cute.
>i'm sitting here talking to sammie shuleman. nice and randomly wonderful.<
( i have to makeup my co-op final at 10:10 ..how goofy is that? co-op is such the joke. )
^ i'm actually really liking this covo with sammie...takes me back to freshman year. She's telling me about her crush right now and it sounds just like me ..three years back. time flies when your having fun^
i just realized i didnt' play certain things for the band final that i was suppose to. whoops....sleigh ride is a doozy. BUT i tried playing the day after i got my braces on, didn't happen. I can't play
anything higher than a G ( like on the staff ) yuck, mikey would be sad.
you'd think i'd be use to the braces by now huh? no such luck...i'm finally talking semi normally..kind of. The night i went to rehersal after getting the braces i was like spitting on myself everytime i tried to speak. charming i know.
alrighty then i'm off..everyone have a good weekend
:)
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[20 Jan 2005|07:42pm] |
so this morning i wake up (because my dad doesnt' know how to be quiet in the morning when he's getting ready for work)and i like gasp in pain when i try to roll over. I Have no idea what had happened in teh past 9 hours..but i felt paralyzed.
so i kind of roll out of bed and make my way to my mom's room to tell her there is no chance i can get to school like this today in the current conditions, meanwhile i kid you not i'm walking hunched over like i'm igor from the young frankenstein or something.
it was a complete mess. i have no idea what was wrong...i felt like my stomach was going to explode ( what a lovely image)
i'm feeling incredibly yuck right now...i've been home all day in pain...mrs.p is going to murder me for not going to rehersal...i just read wils journal and it made me sad...gah i'm so out of it...
oh yes and tommorow i have to go to school just to pass in my notebook for co-op ..fabulous..this will be followed by staying at school for hours because i have rehersal.
yuckity yuck yuck
"When the world wasn't upside down, I could take all the time I had
But I'm not going to wait when a moment can vanish so fast
'Cuz every kiss is a kiss you can never get back
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night
When the answer to all my dreams is as close as a touch away
Why am I here holding back what I'm trying to say?
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting for this
This is the night
This is the night where we capture forever all our tomorrow's begin
After tonight, we will never be lonely again
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night"
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[19 Jan 2005|01:29pm] |
long time no entry
this is my first entry since i became a brace face
again...oy vey.
this is finals week at my school ..and i did the stupid of all stupid things.
i had my math final this morning at 8:15 which was fine n'all...BUT i did the stupid thing of leaving all the hard problems till the end. My brain was absaloutly fried and i went to finish up all the quadractic equations...and F**K me my calculator goes
" your battery is dying"
and that was the end
*wails*
so basically i had to write out all of the problems using the b(+ or -) the square root of b squared minus 4 ac divided by 2a or...how ever that goes...yeah it was a smashing good time.
i'm pretty sure i left like half of it blank.
i will hunt down ms.leb and kill her if i dont' pass it.
no just kidding it was my own fault....
long weekend was a good time. slept over sammiefaces on sun. and then slept over nicholes on mon. hense my loooking like i died right now. i got no sleep whatsoever. nichole and WERE drifting off to sleep and then i askeed an "ashleyish" question and we ended up talking for hours..well into the morning
we interupt htis journal entry ....
(this supercool kid named jon is staring at the screen while i type and wants his moment of fame)
JON CREAN IS A LOVELY LAD
OoOoOoO we start the new semseter on mon. as i told tom last night online "shoot me in the face" i'm not in H block band anymore *wails*
my schedule looks as follows...
AB - prodan(ass) for chem
CD hart for english
E- vocal/concertquire
F-chorale/band
GH- roy for physics
what the heck is with this. i have three "thinking" classes my last few months of highschool..EVER...crazyness...
i'm out...adios
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[11 Jan 2005|02:19pm] |
this is the list of the many things that made what is usually an ordinary day that much better...
1. my little brother who has called me every name in the book...the brother who got me so mad last night that we ended up beating the crap out of eachother ( yes i'm mature i know) was heard telling his friends that his " big sister got one of the leads in her school musical." *gasp*
friend: my drum teacher is teaching me the music from seussical
little ghetto bro of mine: i know that show
friend: oh yeah
little ghetto bro of mine: yeah my big sis is in it
friend: oh yeah?
little ghetto bro of mine: yeah she got a lead ,how cool is that?
....unbeliveable
2. ok so i'm strolling down the hall after school towards the band room and out of no where i'm like jumped on from behind. You know like putting your hands on someone shoulders to hoist yourself up. OK so then i turn around and get a "hello" from jay kruzinski. woah. okay i would have guessed that was mr.besciglia before i would guess jay. i wasn't aware that i was worthy of a hello from him...
3. so today in band we had to do some more of our final's testing. I've been playing trumpet the shortest amount of time compared to the others in my section...so you know playing in front of everyone isn't a joy. Anyhoo after F block i asked novack for some help on the two octaive chromatic scale and he goes "i can't belive the sound your making, after playing for such a short time." bless my heart...did i just get a compliment from novack? astounding
4. i am blown away by the talent of tyler. like who can write like that? and he's a freshman....crazy. he's so mature for his age, but we still goof off so he's nice to know.
5. Today was like a kingswood reunion or something. During school i was with brett,chris and jon and this kid comes up to talk to chris.I kid you not i had to do a double take , he looked SO much like aaron. it was crazy. THEN i get home and guess who im's me ? yeah aaron,which was nice. THEN ben im's me..woah number two...THEN julian im's me. All summer people on my screen at once. twas wonderful
i enjoyed this day
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[10 Jan 2005|04:08pm] |
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today in psychology we were given a piece of paper..told to rip it into 8 squares and write down 8 characteristics(good and bad) about ourself.
mine were as follows...
1.patient, dont' mind being the person to lend an ear
2. too nice, to the point of pushover sometimes
3. musical
4. fail miserably in the boy field
5. feel rather plain sometimes
6. let people know often how special they are, even when they don't belive me
7. kind hearted, i hate mean people
8. wish i could express how i feel in better ways, generally keep it in
keep in mind, he said we could write in in any way we wanted...like one word answers, sentences..anything.AND no one was going to read them, just for us to reflect on.
so i got to thinking here as i looked at my list...how i looked down on paper. i'm not so sure what i thought of it all...
then he goes "i want you to take the thing you like LEAST in what you wrote and crumple it up and throw it away." metaphorically getting rid of what we think is the worst thing about us. It was lovely to think about. Still, the one i threw away was "too nice to people". But i dont think i'd be the same person without that characteristic. I mean alot of my friends find it funny when i try to be mean,because it's just never been me i guess. hmm.
almost like he was reading my mind he goes on to say
" does anyone ever feel like there is anyone in the world who will stop and say to you.."you know what, your okay...dont be hard on yourself, your doing okay at life." no not usualy, we critique eachother down to nothing as if we don't critique ourselves enough."
wow how true is that. No one comes up to you and tells you that your a good person, but people will sure come and critizise you. Those times where i have stopped to tell someone that i thought they were a special person, and so worth knowing...i felt like i was pointless at the time, gettign no "thanks, yeah i am alright aren't i." but i guess they must take it in somewhere and try to accept it.
eh i dunno.
my number 4 is so true too...i live for the day i dont' suck at life in that way.
only 4 days left of the semester. i can't believe it. that means 2nd semester starts..countdown to graduation and all that. it went by soooo fast.
i'm off...
"I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good"
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[08 Jan 2005|05:54pm] |
new year...figured i needed a newjournal in addition.
Our school musical is up and running now. Gah, i'm not sure how i feel about it all. Don't get me wrong, i'm a musical geek, i love every minuet of rehersal and whatever...there are just alot of factors playing in that are making it iffy.
1. i don't have a clue why this happened, but she made all these quiet kids the who's of whoville. All of the animals and fish and whoever are the loud ones who like run the music department. This all became very much apparent at the last rehersal where we were rehersing "chasing the who's." We got to the part where the who's sing " we're who's here! please don't let us fall..."etc. and i look around and make a mr.novak joke by saying " a little louder who's..." because no one was singing. To add to this mess, i'm the only first soprano as far as i know that was at rehersal that's a who. SO there i am sick as a dog tryign to hit these ungodly high notes...it was a mess.
2. i merely assumed when i was cast as mrs.mayor that i wouldn't have that much to learn, i only knew of "here on who" and " how to raise a child" that i have to sing. UM i was wrong. I put little tab things on the songs i have to learn. Can you say 15 songs. I mean i dont' sing them all by myself...but make SOME kind of apearence in all of them.oyvey , i wasn't aware.
3. Me and mr.mayor can NOT sing well together at all. OMG it's terrible.
4. So many people are dropping out of the show, or already have. i dont' get it, this is the funnest show i've ever done. They were all like "i dont want to just be a fish .." dur.
we blocked the opening the other day. it's insane-ly wonderful.EVeryone has such a blast just being a goof...and i love how everyoen has differnt costumes...liek some people are animals, others are who's, but at the beginning we all dance together...it's great. still haven't figured out how i'm going to bust out those moves in a skirt, we shall see.
i'm out...have a good weekend all...
"Oh, the thinks you can think!
Oh, the thinks you can think
If you're willing to try...
Think invisible ink!
Or a gink with a stink!
Or a stair to the sky...
If you open your mind,
Oh, the thinks you will find
Lining up to get loose...
Oh, the thinks you can think
When you think about...
SEUSS"
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